Ever since I saw the DVD The Secret years ago, the ‘Law of Attraction’ has left a somewhat bad taste in my mouth. What I most remember is the film’s emphasis on manifesting material objects. There may have been more to it, but I don’t recall attracting for the collective good being a significant feature.
I get that this video was a great tool to speak to the masses about the power of mind and visualization. But the concept of manifesting in a bubble doesn’t sit right with me.
When I reflect on my personal goals, I can’t help but contemplate their impact on humanity at large. While I appreciate having beautiful things, the thought of focusing my energy solely on the manifestation of material ‘stuff’ makes me feel a little dead on the inside.
The other day I was walking to work and I realized (not for the first time) that pretty much everything in my life is a judgment. Being on the spiritual path for many years, this is very humbling for me to acknowledge. My ego seems to always be at work, sizing up the people and situations I come into contact with.
While discernment is a very good thing, and in order to function in this world we need to assess and make sense of the reality around us, when the ego is involved, it can be a very fine line.
I’ve had a few isolated experiences in my life where I have been in an authentic state of non-judgment. And I know that 99.9 percent of the time, I am not in that state.
On my walk, I thought…what would it be like to go through a day where I didn’t judge anything? I immediately felt something loosen up inside me; there was freedom and peace.
Now that is an ultimate goal: non-judgment. And in that moment I understood that the Law of Attraction, for me, is about accessing and cultivating states of being. Love. Compassion. Consciousness. Integrity. Patience. Awareness. Softness. Discernment.
I’m not really sure where I’m going with this post. Only that I’m now at a point where I’m very open to conscious creation. And I want to find the balance in having my personal needs and desires met, and being of service to humanity.
This conjures up all kinds of questions surrounding worthiness and abundance, the individual within the collective, and sacrifice vs. service.
So what does ‘service’ mean, exactly?
I’ve always had the notion that it’s those tangible, physical, altruistic acts that people can see. Attending protests and getting vocal. Volunteering weekly at a community organization. Going overseas to developing countries and building schools. And while these acts are necessary and very noble, is it the service most appropriate for me in this lifetime?
I’ve been quite hard on myself for not physically ‘doing’ enough to improve the world. But I can’t say that humanity at large – the bigger picture – isn’t often at the forefront of my thoughts.
Do prayer, yoga, and seeking to grow in awareness and consciousness, constitute service to humanity?
Is attempting to go through one day without judging, service? Is smiling at a passerby when I don’t feel like it ‘enough’?
I want to travel and write and further my yoga practice and delve much deeper into my spirituality, stripping away all that is not love in my physical being. This is my lifelong work and dream, my personal dharma.
I am not against material wealth. But my Law of Attraction is about magnetizing the most love and awareness I can in each moment, and bringing that to every interaction. Only then will I fully enjoy any worldly success that may spring from that.