Is anyone else experiencing time flying by at warp speed? I haven’t blogged in a while, but a niggling internal voice has been reminding me daily…It’s time for your next post!
Actually, I don’t know if ‘niggling’ is the right word. Blogging has been an awesome addition to my life these past few months. So maybe it’s time to reflect on this wonderful WordPress world, and muse on the questions it’s raised for me.
First: Why does a private person want to share their innermost thoughts so publicly? I consider myself quite introverted, so it’s interesting that I’m relatively comfortable expressing myself so openly in this forum. Sure, there is some detachment on the web, in that it’s mostly ‘strangers’ reading my words. But even this is changing as friends and family discover my blog, and strangers become friends. As my worlds merge, I question why I’m not very forthcoming with those supposedly closest to me. Why have I been resistant to them knowing the ‘real’ me? I guess I can’t hide for much longer! The word is spreading.
Inspiration strikes when I’m not near a computer. And that’s ok. I like to walk. Everywhere. And ideas often stream through me during this time. I’m not one to whip out my iPhone to take notes (it majorly interrupts my flow), so I’ve come to enjoy the feeling of being inspired, and allowing it to imprint upon me…trusting that I can tap into it when needed. When I stress about losing ideas, it introduces resistance to the whole blogging process. And then it becomes less enjoyable for me.
Blogging makes me accountable. But not too accountable. There’s something about declaring your hopes and dreams to the entire world that makes them more real. This is a great motivator, but also requires patience and compassion for myself. If I change my mind, or don’t follow through with something I write, it’s okay. Things are always in flux and, especially as I refine and tweak my desires, I must allow myself that flexibility.
Redefining blogging etiquette. For example, how often should I blog? There are lots of great blogging resources out there, many of which stress the importance of regular, frequent posting. But I need to develop my own protocol (i.e., one with no rules). Some weeks, the inspiration flows mightily and I have so many ideas I can barely keep up. Other times – I got nothing. I know this is pretty common amongst bloggers…but I personally don’t have a stockpile of posts ready to draw on when my writing well runs dry (as the experts recommend)!
But there are dry spells, and there’s procrastination. Even when I have a great idea in mind, and time to write, I’ll sit on it. Why? The possibility – the potential – that something amazing is within me is sometimes more preferable than attempting to articulate it, and not properly capturing its essence. In other words, it’s the fear of failure – a pattern I see operating in other areas of my life. Thankfully, this tendency is shifting as I shine more light on it (with some help from Abraham-Hicks, of course). But it prompts me to ask:
Who am I writing for? I started this blog as an avenue of self-expression. I’m happy others have discovered, and found resonance with, my words. But at times I’m very aware that others are reading. And I have to remind myself of the primary reason for my writing: to authentically express myself. Not to write what I think will make me likable, not to gain stats, not to make sure the post is the ‘right’ number of words so as to not deter readers.
I sometimes view blogging as a conversation between me and my higher self (something I read on another blog), which has its own value on my journey of self-discovery and speaking my truth. As soon as I stray from authenticity – when I slip into ego, when I make it about others and not me – I’m not in integrity and alignment.
And yet – it is undeniable that the interaction with others is what makes blogging so great! Which brings me to…
Why I am I doing this? Quite simply, because it feels good. And it’s fun. After years of over-analyzing/processing/questioning, and generally feeling very stuck, I’m learning that life is about cultivating more fun, joy, and lightness whenever and wherever I can. And when I focus on all the amazing people I’ve ‘met’ all over the world, and the ideas that have been generated and shared, I see blogging as one creative means for achieving these positive states.
I imagine Earth as a globe with little points of light everywhere, more being lit every second, with like-minded bloggers connecting and networking and charging up the whole planet.
Consciousness is exciting. Writing is exciting. Connection is exciting. Self-expression is exciting!
I’m so glad I took the plunge and wrote that first post (almost) six months ago.
Thank you for reading!