blog? what blog?

Life looks very different than it did just a few short months ago. Since wrapping up my job in September, things seem to be changing – internally and externally – at warp speed.

I have to say that these last weeks of 2014 have been some of the most eye-opening and emotionally intense in recent years.  I completed a school program, cleaned up messes and restored integrity with loved ones (this seems to be ongoing!), had an old flame contact me after years of distance, landed part-time work in a completely new field, started my own business with a dear friend, and met some amazing people who will undoubtedly play a significant role in 2015.

In all this, blogging took a backseat. And I’ve missed it!

Image courtesy of Vaughan Lewis

Image courtesy of Vaughan Lewis.

I remember sensing that once I quit my job, other aspects of my life would also change. And I don’t mean this on a purely physical level. Giving up my easy, cushy 9-5 was telling the universe that I trusted there is something more to life than the routine I’d become so accustomed to. It was saying – ‘I may be crazy, but I’m willing to take that risk. What could life really be like?’

I won’t lie that for the first few weeks after quitting, I was seriously second-guessing my decision. I realized that I deeply missed the structure my job provided.  Not the actual work, but having somewhere to go. My walks to and from work, and the daily coffee joint with the other ‘regulars’. Socializing with my friends and colleagues. Feeling like I was contributing to something.

I’m now appreciating the total responsibility I have for creating my entire life. It’s the first time in many years where it’s 100% up to me to plan my day.  I miss the structure of my old job? Well then, I must implement my own structure. It’s really that simple. (It’s our stories that make things complicated!)

Starting my own business has brought up a lot of stuff – excitement, fear, creativity, and doubt, to name a few.  But at this point there is no turning back. There’s a sense of urgency in the air and I know many of us are feeling it. Time is speeding up, and one year could easily turn into five.

If not now, then when? How do I want to design my life? And what am I actually doing to create that? In these last few weeks I’ve had to be really honest with myself about my procrastination tendencies…well, that’s another post. Suffice it to say that the universe supports me, but it’s not just going to pick me up and plop me into a new life without any action on my part. I need to give it something to work with! This is the power we have as creators. This is where our mettle is tested. Where I walk my talk.

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On a different note, when I was in Bologna in 2013 I met a lovely couple from my hometown, and since we’d travelled to the same places in Italy, they kindly sent me their beautiful photos. Just recently I received a Christmas greeting from them.  I was immediately drawn to one of the pictures attached.  It was taken in Tulum, Mexico at a Catholic church on December 12, the Dìa de la Virgen de Guadaloupe.  There is a whole history behind the association of Mexican Catholicism and Aboriginal spirituality, but I personally was transfixed by the image of the mother and daughter, and the colours and feathers. To me the photo symbolizes the passing down of feminine knowledge and the role of the divine feminine on planet earth at this time. I knew there was a message for me here. And it has something to do with 2015.

With that I will say ciao – and that it’s good to be back! Wishing everyone a love-filled, creative, and inspiring new year.

 

 

 

 

50 thoughts on “blog? what blog?

  1. There’s something very empowering about being your own boss and managing your own time – but at the same very scary and full of endless possibilities. Good luck with it all – it’s an exciting time!

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  2. Thank you for your inspiring posts, Aloyaleya! That is such an incredible photo. I was actually so moved by it and by your heart felt and fascinating writing. I feel such a kinship to you and look forward to hearing more of your journey. I too have a procrastination habit in my past that I feel I’m just breaking free of now. Doesn’t it feel good?

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    • thanks so much maggie, that is a really lovely comment! 🙂 i’m very happy i discovered your blog as i really connected with your words. (and we’re in the same province too!) i look forward to reading and sharing more. have a great day, aleya

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  3. Dear Aleya,
    I Love the wisdom and the learnings that you share in this post. It takes great courage, focus and faith to capture your dream and to start manifesting your passion. I really identify with your story, however, the manifestation part and the support of the universe is yet to start…I haven’t given up hope though 🙂
    Lovely posts always in your blog dear Aleya and I am always looking forward to reading more.
    Regards and all the best
    Nadine

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  4. Wow that is bold and courageous to quit a cushion job and venture out on your own! Truly inspiring 🙂 can I ask how you landed a position in an entirely different field with no experience?

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    • thanks! i got the job because i went to school for a 2-month long program, and i made some networking/connections there. i think that’s the best way to do it, when you’re starting something completely new. volunteering/interning is a great way to get in! thank you for commenting! 🙂 aleya

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  5. Beautifully written! What great news to hear of all your progress. I have yet to quit my 9-5, but everythung in my neing is telling me to. I guess i keep hoping I’ll get someone’s permission

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  6. Happy New Year Aleya! I look forward to your 2015 postings- always love to hear your inspiring words! The universe really does support us when we are doing what we are meant to! Excited to hear more of your journey.x

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  7. Happy New Year! Thank you for sharing the beautiful photo! I appreciated your comments about structuring your day. I am retired, and I love it, but it is hard for me sometimes to figure out structure. Thank you for visiting my blog and for your great post!:)

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  8. glad I’m not the only one whose been on a blogging break, sounds like you had some great reasons. This is so exciting, so inspiring to hear stories of people following their heart over convention 🙂

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    • no you’re definitely not the only one. i hope to blog more regularly for 2015 but who knows, things might get crazy! congrats on the all the changes in your own life. 🙂 looking forward to reading more. happy new year! aleya

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  9. Sorry I have been absent as well. My reasons for not visiting are super busy, school, work, holidays and WP doesn’t email me notifications anymore, which rapidly linked me to you…. I am so very proud of your courage and self-sovereignty! It is a wondrous thing and I BELIEVE in YOU Aleya! I live near Guadalupe street and she appeared to me once in my backyard, she was a little bossy demanding a statue. You are going to excel in 2015 and have a great year. Love and hope to meet you this year. You were number 4 in my top 5 commentators. 🙂

    Namaste
    Your sister~
    Sindy

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    • ah, i love to hear that! there is life outside the cubicle! 🙂 i know this connection to the divine will only get stronger as i follow my own intuition, even when (especially when) things are uncertain. this is how we create a new world. thanks so much for the re-blog too. ❤ aleya

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      • When I first left the ‘business world’ I felt quite adrift and alone, but it took nearly three years to detoxify myself from that mindless routine; up at 5am, commute to work, insert myself in cubicle, take lunch, take breaks, leave at 5pm, commute, then home. I loved talking with workmates and getting out of the house every day, but really, now that I work at home, I can’t imagine doing it all again. Thanks for the original post!! 😀

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  10. Trusted that you’d find your way beck to the blogging community that appreciates you. Kudos on all that is unfolding in your personal and professional life. It seems intended. 🙂 Wishing you continued moments of awareness and confidence — in you! Cliche, yes, but good things do happen to good people.

    And not to promote my blog, the following link to perhaps, reassure you and your instincts. Very happy for you, Aleya!

    http://tonningsen.wordpress.com/2014/12/17/on-a-verge/

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    • thank you eric, it’s wonderful to feel the support of our amazing blogging community! your post is spot on (and i love the timing hehe), and i look forward to catching up on more in the coming days. i hope you’ve had a wonderful holiday – and here’s to the best year yet, 2015! 🙂 cheers, aleya

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  11. I remember quitting my job years ago and feeling that same initial unanchor-dness. And it definitely passes. I appreciate how aware you are of your inner process and ability to track what’s up for you and that you do have the power to create what you want. I know when I was younger thinking the universe supported me meant that if I made one change toward what I wanted everything would line up – there was even a loss at admitting that no one- person, force outside of myself, etc- was going to show up to make my life what it wanted- the creative process is up to me. Blessings to you on this journey you are on. Rich and yummy for sure.

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    • that’s exactly it – feeling unanchored. and in that space it’s so easy to go into overwhelm, and all those other fun things! i’m so glad to know it passes. i’m starting to feel that already, but definitely still have my moments of unease. and i so get what you’re staying about your earlier ideas of support from the universe. i used to think that i could just intend something, and if it was ‘meant to be’ then bam – it would just happen effortlessly! maybe there is some truth to that but i am very aware now that action is a big component too. thank you for your lovely words, as always. much love to you as we enter this new year. aleya

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  12. I’m so glad to see you are “back” and even more so to hear of this “old flame” coming into your life. I have been deeply touched by your blog but am more touched by the soul that it has revealed which I know is always present even if the blog ceases to be. I am much older than you and always gain confidence and hope in meeting young spirits like you who will “carry on” in a few years when I cross the river Styx!

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    • lew, it is always great to hear from you. 🙂 you’ve been a longtime supporter and i so appreciate your kind words! yes, i’m entering 2015 with all kinds of interesting things happening, and now i know that sharing the journey thru blogging is such a fun part of it. i like to think that we’re all creating a new world together. wishing you all the best for the year ahead! aleya

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  13. Hey Sweetie,
    You have been on my mind and am really happy to see you here! There is no substitute for your bright bubbly inspiring energy 😉

    I know how it can be when we are up to our eyeballs in “stuff”. So glad life is exciting and teeming with adventure. Hope your holidaze was more holy and less daze!

    love ya,
    Linda

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    • oh you are so, so awesome and i’ve missed you! i’m looking forward to catching up on the posts of my bloggette pals, as the next few days will be pretty chill. sending you BIG love as we enter 2015 – maybe this will be the year we all meet up in some exciting location!! ❤ aleya

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  14. My love, I was JUST thinking of you this morning!! I’ve missed you and I’m so supremely happy to see you back in blogopolis 😉

    I am running out the door this minute so will come back to read you – but just wanted to drop you a serious cyber bear hug! XOXO

    Big love and light,

    Allison

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