india is awakening within

Adjusting to ‘normal’ life after completing the first module of my Kundalini Yoga teacher training program has been…well, there are no words. And there are so many words. My whole being feels very full of insights, knowledge, understanding, and gratitude.

Being sequestered for five days in a house full of yogis, with daily meditations starting at 4am, physically challenging classes, and yes, a snoring roommate, put me out of my comfort zone in a big way. I embraced it all as gracefully as I could – though there were definitely a couple of clunky moments!

Me in India, in 2010

Me in India, in 2010

My Kundalini adventure is just beginning. I have three more modules to complete, plus daily homework of yoga, reading, and meditation till the program finishes in May 2016.

I’m seeing why it took the amount of time it did for me to get here. The seeds of this journey were planted over ten years ago, when I took my first Kundalini Yoga class and knew there was something very special about the technology. Even then I knew that this path couldn’t be pursued halfheartedly; it requires a level of commitment and discipline that I wasn’t prepared for until now. Actually, I still feel unprepared – but that’s a story of limitation I’m ready to break through.

I understand why I’ve spent so many years alone, exploring different teachings, and delving into my shadow and dark feelings. It’s all been preparation for a new way of being.

‘Surrender’ and ‘trust’ are recurring themes in the blogs I read. If humanity is indeed evolving in consciousness, we must let go of the idea that God/Universe/Source is out to get us. That is an old paradigm. We’re moving into the deep knowing that we are fundamentally good and not fundamentally flawed (as many traditional religions would have us believe). We’re much more than the duality we live in.

To surrender and trust means giving up the need to control every facet of our lives (or rather, releasing the illusion that that’s even possible). During our morning mediations, I felt so much tension in my face…clenched jaw, scrunched up eyes…the stress of thinking, worrying, and holding on. My body is so ready to let that all go.

Our beautiful teacher training room

Our beautiful teacher training room

We don’t need to try so hard; the universe remembers connections we’ve made and seeds we’ve planted. Last month I received an unexpected email from a former employer, asking if I’d be interested in writing a blog post for her spiritual travel company. For a time I’d worked as the company’s social media coordinator, and blogging was my favourite aspect of that role. I was very happy to have that opportunity arise once again.

I found myself writing about India. She is playing a very big role in my life right now, as I study the yogic teachings and feel the presence of my ancestors all around me. I’m discovering a part of myself that I buried a long time ago. India is awakening within.

Nothing is ever lost, if it’s in alignment with who we really are and what we love to do. Things are always cycling back to us in newer, more refined forms as we experience, learn, and clarify. It’s about shifting the power from the mind to the heart.

Time to head to my local Kundalini Yoga class – today’s homework! 🙂

Until next time,
Aleya

Here’s my guest post for Sacred Earth Journeys: http://www.sacredearthjourneys.ca/blog/indias-cosmic-winks-a-story-from-a-past-participant/.

28 thoughts on “india is awakening within

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  3. Absolutely beautiful and inspiring, Aleya. I felt exactly the same about beginning my own studies – and I still wonder if I’m up to it at times! We are and we can do this!

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  4. Such wise words, Aleya. A trip to India sounds amazing. I’ve never been. There was a time when I was serious about planning that trip, but then kids came along and the trip has been pushed. Hopefully I will make it there at some point. I can only imagine the spiritual impact a visit to India can have on anyone, but especially a yogi or seeker. x o x o

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  5. I love this post… and the view from your training room. Especially this line … “We don’t need to try so hard; the universe remembers connections we’ve made and seeds we’ve planted.” So happy for you and yes—the tribe is rising.
    all the love
    aubrey

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    • Thank you Aubrey. ❤ Yes the view was amazing…a beautiful ocean with eagles flying overhead. And all kinds of weather to make it interesting – magic! Much love, Aleya

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  6. I love when those times come when one can step back and see the beautiful wild mandala of one’s life that has been unfolding all along— usually found in the through lines in between all the actions we were taking to make life happen some other grand design was being shaped. Thrilled for you and your latest journey.

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  7. I have found myself not surrendering or trusting lately and just getting stuck in my thoughts. It isn’t a feeling that I’m being punished by the universe but that I am not protected from being punished by another person and so then I lose faith in being taken care of by the universe. Then I swing back and find a way to see something good to be grateful for out of the difficult and know that it is changeable by my own perceptions. But then life gets to me again and I forget how it feels to be grateful. I swing back and forth. I’m looking to find my alignment again. Thanks for a lovely post, as usual.
    I loved your guest post as well. I’m glad I could be a little part of the synchronicity you’ve been experiencing. : )

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    • Swinging back and forth, I can relate to that. There are a couple mantras/chants from my training – from our 4am sadhana! – that I have been listening to nonstop these past few days. They’re helping me focus my mind on something other than my thoughts. My thoughts have been on repeat mode for years, leaning towards negativity and powerlessness. Interestingly, one of those chants is about feeling protection from God and when I listen to it I feel a sense of supreme relief. It’s like my system knows its truth whereas my mind doubts it (which is why I don’t think it’d be so effective for me if it was in English!)

      Thank you for reading the guest post. Your book is amazing and inspires me to write more about travel and yoga. Much love, Aleya

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  8. Thanks, my friend! Your life makes me think of something Rilke once said of the hero/heroine, “He (she) is strangely close to one who dies young. Daily (she) takes herself off and steps into the changing constellation of her own everlasting risk.”

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  9. Just read your guest post, awesome and thensome! I dream of India and India is showing up again in my life too. Here’s too India. Substitute a L for and I and you get Linda 🙂

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  10. may beautiful india continue to awaken within you so that you can shine your light out onto the world and make it more beautiful for all of us… we are all connected after all 🙂 thank you!

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  11. Wow, thank you for this jolt of inspiration.
    I was chatting with, by chance, an Indian ( East Indian) friend of mine over my birthday lunch, and we covered this topic at length:

    If humanity is indeed evolving in consciousness, we must let go of the idea that God/Universe/Source is out to get us. That is an old paradigm. We’re moving into the deep knowing that we are fundamentally good and not fundamentally flawed (as many traditional religions would have us believe). We’re much more than the duality we live in.

    To surrender and trust means giving up the need to control every facet of our lives (or rather, releasing the illusion that that’s even possible).

    I have also blogged on this topic many times, striving to undo my ideas about losing, being conspired against, and/or being punished by Source. There are less outside influences that support our evolution so it requires effort to focus on the positive paradigm.

    You look beautiful in that pic BTW! I am behind you 110% on your journey to embrace Kundalini yoga.

    love, Linda

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    • You’re welcome! Happy Birthday again! (No such thing as too many happy birthdays, in my opinion.) Love that these conversations are happening all over the place. It is interesting you mention the word punishment, I originally had it in the post and it’s something we discussed in the training – this idea of a punishing, vengeful God. It’s so deeply ingrained within us. Who knows what God will unleash on us if we truly surrender! We also talked a lot about the Age of Pisces shift to the Age of Aquarius – a punishing God is very much Age of Pisces, and it’s time to say bye-bye to that concept. As difficult as this is, we are having these conversations, so there must be a readiness for a new relationship with God. These conversations aren’t happening in the masses, but I have faith they will infiltrate with our persistence heheh.

      Thank you re the photo…that was a wonderful day spent with the sculptures. Much love! Aleya

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    • Thank you…I’m very grateful to have made it to this point. I can see why it’s good I never got the things I thought I most wanted. Namaste, Aleya

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