change clears debris

My morning ritual for some time now has been to get up super early, make my one coffee for the day, and watch inspiring youtube videos (mostly long-form interviews) while I make jewelry. I then go to work at a job I don’t love…but it’s ok, because I know I have that soul-nourishing daily morning time to myself.

Of course, the conversation has changed in the last couple weeks. I’ve been watching videos posted by Caroline Myss and Marianne Williamson, and their words, meditations, and prayers about our current state resonate with me. In one of her recent posts, Myss says the words, ‘change clears debris’, and when I heard that, I thought…yes.

gorgeous morning magnolia

I will be working from home for the foreseeable future. I’m grateful to have this option, as my partner was to start a new job that has now been indefinitely postponed. I myself am supposed to transfer to a different department in a few weeks, but that’s up in the air too.

Everyone I know is impacted in some way or another. ‘Impacted’ is probably an understatement. It’s inconvenient, it’s uncertain, and it’s HUGE. It’s fascinating that the whole world is dealing with this right now; it’s hard to grasp the totality of it all. (I always thought it would be an alien visit that gave humanity a shared experience.)

Many people have discussed that this forced social distancing/staying at home can be a positive thing. I think about countries such as Italy, and all those people everywhere who aren’t working, who are homeless, who are sick and can’t get the supplies they need. I am fortunate to have food, shelter, and support.

In addition to staying informed of the ‘facts’, I can’t help but look at this from a spiritual perspective. I have my own thoughts about the bigger Why of this. Humans have long needed a wake-up call; many of us know this. A wake up call to what? The consequences of greed, separation, entitlement, willful ignorance, busy-ness, disregard for our earth, patriarchy and privilege, over-consumption. I see where I’ve played into every one of these aspects.

We are not in control. These past few months I’ve been working hard to change certain situations in my life, and now – especially now – I can’t force anything. I’m throwing in the towel. Virtually every aspect of life is affected by this virus; we can only control how we manage our own energy in the midst of it all.

I’m glad I have so many beads to occupy me. 🙂 This is a perfect time for crafting, writing, reading, meditating/contemplating/praying to energetically counter the widespread fear and panic that many – not all – are experiencing. I’m grateful to have this golden opportunity.